As I continue to work with the incredible Ellen Tailor co-host of Fitz in the Morning on The Wolf on her personal journey toward Optimal Health, it is wonderful to see her continue sharing her experience, her journey with all of us. This particular blog post, while somewhat humorous, is also incredibly serious. She continues to share her heart and tells us about a “Breakup” that more of our clients have than you might realize. I applaud Ellen for bravery in sharing her journey with all of us. She is “Guest Blogging” with us again and we sincerely encourage you to follow her story on this exciting transformation. Stay tuned…there will be more blog posts about her journey, one we can all relate to in our journey towards Optimal Health. Here is her blog, in its entirety…
Something clicked. My head and body were in sync. We finally had an understanding that we wanted to change and we started down a new path. A healthier path.
I felt confident. Saw the world in a whole new way. Dare I say it, happy? The scale didn’t read the way I wanted it to but I had accepted that it wouldn’t change over night and I was okay with that.
I planned my meals. Ate better. But then why did I gain weight?! I had cut out the quick grab-and-go foods. Hadn’t had a drop of diet soda (which is my Achilles heel.) So what the heck happened?!
I’m a creature of habit. I have an addictive personality. When I find something I like, I become obsessed with it. This week, it was ground turkey lettuce wraps. Yum! The lettuce provided the crunch that the taco shell had given and I’ve always preferred ground turkey over beef. The only thing missing was a substitute for sour cream. I’m a sucker for sauces. Anne, my coach at Optimal365, told me to use Greek yogurt. I’m no stranger to that creamy goodness since, well, I’m Greek. I ate those delicious lettuce wraps for four days straight. I LOVED them!
I visited Anne like I do every Friday and hopped on the scale. I got on there with confidence because I knew I had stuck to the plan. Then to my horror, the number had gone up. Up?! How could it have gone up?!
We had discovered early on in this process that my body can’t handle cheese. Another Achilles heel. This week we figured out the problem was more than just cheese. It was all dairy products. All dairy?! Are you kidding?!
I was pissed. I’m okay giving up diet soda because it was never meant to be good for you. But cheese and yogurt?! It’s hard to have to give up something that I always thought was healthy and necessary. Is this why I’ve always been heavier compared to the rest of my family? We were all eating the same thing. How was I gaining weight and not them?! It all makes sense now.
I couldn’t accept it though. I had to have one last secret rendezvous. I was hoping to prove my body wrong. Prove that I could handle dairy, especially chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream. And not just ice cream, but a chocolate chip cookie dough milkshake. I cheated. I got one. I sucked that thing down so fast. And I’ve felt miserable ever since.
Physically, well I’ll spare you the details but let’s just say thank goodness I live alone and my dog doesn’t judge. Emotionally, I’m conflicted.
On one hand, I’m mourning the loss of some of my favorite foods. It’s kind of like a bad breakup. You know the guy isn’t good for you, and you want to still be with him SO bad, but you know you can’t. I wish cheese, ice cream, and milk all the best but this is the end of the road for us my dear friend.
I have no choice. I have to give up dairy. There’s no way around it. But what outweighs (forgive the pun) the feeling of loss is that of appreciation. A sigh of relief.
Diet after diet after diet and nothing worked. Could the mystery finally have been solved? It has! Another huge step towards success and my goal of achieving Optimal Health. This was yet another hurdle. A hurdle that I’m determined to clear!
What a great part of the journey – realizing you are poisoning yourself and deciding to change forever – kudos Ellen. You are an amazing woman and one that is going to be super successful on your journey and will look back and see how much you have improved your health, eating, and lots of other parts of your life. Thanks again for sharing your Journey with all of us and letting us into your soul and heart so we can see the real Ellen. For anyone who missed her last blog post, “My Not-So-Private-Anymore Journey Towards Self-Acceptance by Ellen Tailor” or her first blog post, “Ellen Tailor speaks from the heart…it’s about DREAMS!” we encourage you to check them out. We can’t wait for the next story…